I feel like I have struggled secretly (and at times, not so secretly) with post-graduate work and sucess. I feel like what I have achieved thus far is not up to par on my personal scale. Literally, this a situation that I struggle with on a daily basis. I feel like I have lost the core values I once held for myself. They have been replaced by the need to make money, and keep up on daily bills and chores.
I feel like I am in art rehab, very slowly building my way back up the ladder to the heights I was before. Helping this is a new, potential residency at the my old university. Even thinking of the idea of getting back into the darkroom produced a feeling that I have not had in a long time. I am so excited to make work again, for myself, to really show off my thoughts. I feel when this falls into place, other things will too, and I will pull through, and begin to be able to measure myself as I once did.